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Monday, January 25

River finally fell asleep sometime yesterday. I'm not sure what time it was; we'd been awake for most of three days running. Life seemed to condense down to a small, white room in which my sister cried and trays of food would occasionally appear. The protein lumps are largely the same whether it's breakfast, lunch, or dinner, so they didn't provide much of a cue as to what day it was.

I fell asleep close to when she did, curled up on the bed with her like when we were children, and she had nightmares, and Mother told her to go back to bed and stop being nan ai. The tyranny of the bladder woke me at some point, and I stumbled to the head and then came back to curl up on the floor next to her bed. Um, my bed. The bed in my quarters which she was occupying.

When I woke up again, it felt like I'd been drugged. My brain seems to be one step behind, or off center, like the distortion one finds with a bad Cortex connection. I was also hungry.

I found the Captain making coffee when I entered the kitchen. "We thought you might've left us for good, there," he said. "You've been out a while."

"How long?" I asked. I haven't pulled a long stint like that since I was an intern. I tried to stretch the muscles in my neck while I talked to him; the floor is not an optimal place to sleep.

"Close to a day and a half, now," he said.

"Cai bu shi!" Although I remember sleeping like that as an intern, as well. Waking up this late in the evening will make it difficult to set my internal clock to a normal daytime rhythm.

The Captain added some more coffee to the pot. "You look like you could use some," he said. "How's your sister?"

It seemed such a casual question until he looked up. For all his effort to ai li bu li, I do believe our Captain has a heart, after all. Also, such stunning eyes. For a moment, I thought about telling him everything.

"She's getting better," I said. "She's sleeping."

"Well, you get her fixed up soon," he said. "We'd like to see you at breakfast. Jayne's fixin' on becoming intolerable without you around to bust on."

Captain only wants me as cannon fodder. How depressing. On other hand, suspect any affair with him, if even possible, would be short-lived and possibly deadly.

River is beginning to mumble in her sleep. She doesn't appear to be in pain anymore. Will try to get more research done before she wakes.

nan ai - trying (in the sense of difficult or annoying)
Cai bu shi - no way!
ai li bu li - look cold and indifferent

Comments

Captain only wants me as cannon fodder. How depressing. On other hand, suspect any affair with him, if even possible, would be short-lived and possibly deadly.

...but would make Eva very, very happy. ;)